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Friday, May 27, 2011

I'm Still Here

I'm still alive. Some days I feel like I'm going to die. Some days are worse, I feel like I want to die.

Everyone has been great.

While I can I want to thank everyne who has followed my blog, supported me and given me strength. You'll never know how much that helped me through this.

I made a lot of new friends. I cherish all of you and will remember you and your loved ones to God. I will tell your loved ones how much you love them and miss them. But they already know.

Carry on everyone, carry on.

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22 comments:

  1. Thank you for the beautiful note. When you talk to God - can you put a special request in for Kellie Branson. Could you ask him to inspire her and let her know what she should be doing to live her purpose on earth. She is struggling with health, career and financial issues. She really needs extra blessings. I am sure you will be one amazing guardian angel and have a fabulous time enjoying the love of the hereafter. God bless you Jerry - You have given so many people hope and inspiration. I wish you a peaceful and joyous transition into the most beautiful and wonderful future you will be blessed to discover. Thank you again for all you have done. You are a hero we will carry in our hearts forever.

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  2. WE love you! I hope you already know! Love, Mandy

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  3. Thinking about you every day Jerry... hoping that your time left on this earth is filled with joy, happiness, peace, and comfort. Please know that you are loved by so many...

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  4. will love you and pray for you always-

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  5. Jerry, when you climb that stairway to heaven say hello to my mum frances who was very brave fighting the same disease. Tell her I'm doing what she wanted me to do.I wished i could have met you Jerry. Humble follower James england

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  6. I always light up when I see a new blog post appear from you! Your journey has been an inspiration to so many because you have REACHED OUT to others during the toughest times. You touched me during my dad's journey with EC and I am so thankful that God gave you two years here post-diagnosis! I think of you daily and I pray that your transition to the other side is pain-free and peace-filled. ~Larry's girl

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  7. Oh my God how I love you. I hope that you are not in pain at all. I think of you constantly. I will always love you.
    Tracy Hawker

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  8. Hi Jerry, I'm listening to Viktor Frankl's the Meaning of Life on audiobook and thought of you. You continue to inspire me with your courage. Evelyn Galindo-Doucette

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  9. I really do wish that you didn't have to leave, but I don't want you to suffer either. Thanks again for sharing so much of your life with us. I hope you know that many of us have listened carefully and we have learned from your experiences. Whenever I hear "carry on" in the future, I will think of you and consider myself angel-tapped on the shoulder :) I feel blessed to have crossed paths with your wonderful soul Jerry. Peace be with you my friend.

    Angie Poll

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  10. You continue to be an inspiration!! May you be surrounded by comfort and peace. My prayers are with you and your family.

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  11. So many things I want to say, from the heart, without the gift to express them. But I'll try. You are pretty special, Jerry, and just reading the comments shows how you have touched people. But it is YOU who allowed us into your life these past years and months that have brought so many to you. Not many can convey inner feelings the way you have. This physical body we have, lives and dies according to what has been planned for us. But the soul is always there and always will be. The end to pain and suffering is only the beginning of a new life for our soul. We will all be together at some time, with God as our guide in his heavenly home. That is His plan. You have opened yourself to us, in this life, and because of your words "Carry on", we hope to we can do so as well as you have. And then to "Carry on" together in a new 'life'

    We love you Jerry,
    Auntie Eleanor

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  12. From Matthew 25:23 "His master replied, WELL DONE good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!" Jerry, it looks like you are going to have to "Carry on" with many more responsibilities. A personal thank-you for sharing with all of us the example of a life "Well-lived" as a good and faithful servant. God be with you always.

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  13. I'm pretty sure that you can read this from Heaven my friend...God Bless you and don't forget to "save" me a seat at the card game up there!

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  14. This is Heather.... Jerry's daughter. My dad passed away this morning. I am trying to update his blog, as per his final wishes, but am having trouble logging in... Thank you for the thoughts & prayers....

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  15. Thank you Heather. My deepest sorrow to you and your family. Your Dad is now free of pain and is with God now, and all his friends -- who I am sure were there to welcome him. His spirit is -- and always -- will be with you and your dear family. Jerry has left a mark here. He will never be forgotten. He will be missed -- but never forgotten.

    (((((hugs)))))
    Auntie Eleanor

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  16. Thoughts and prayers are with Jerry's family. I will miss him too.

    Rolinda

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  17. Maryrita EddlemanJune 2, 2011 at 6:07 PM

    Heather- I was at your Dad's when he left us- still can't believe it. I worked w/him for the 10 crazy years we did closings and he truly never once raised his voice to me. He will be missed by so many, me included. His sunny disposition and corny sense of humor made it a pleasure to know him,you are all in my thoughts...

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  18. To Jerry's Family: What an amazing person. This blog showed what kind of man he was. We worked together for several years and he was always a person I could rely on. He will truly be missed. Janet Urso

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  19. My thoughts and prayers are with al of you during this hard time. Just remember that Jerry was a very special person to his family co workers and friends and that A special person like Jerry always leaves a footprint in your heart and no one can ever take those special memories you have forever they will be there with you!

    ((( Hugs )))Christina

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  20. My sincerest sympathy to Jerry's family for the loss of such a special person. He was truly brave and inspirational. I had the pleasure of knowing him and being his friend for almost 20 years. I will never forget him and will truly miss him always, but as Jerry said we must all Carry On.

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  21. Derek Evan BlausteinJune 4, 2011 at 1:07 AM

    Jerry was a really nice man with a great sense of humor. He first became my mom's friend many years ago when they were performing in plays together, and then he soon became a friend to my sister, and to our whole family as well. He was also a very good actor and I enjoyed seeing him perform various parts in different shows over the years. He will certainly be missed by everyone in my family, and so many other people as well. I send my condelences to his family and all his other friends.

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  22. I did not know your father or your family. I found Jerry's blog when researching this awful cancer, as a dear friend's husband was diagnosed with stage 4 in March. I went back to the beginning and read Jerry's entries, almost like reading a book. I knew what the ending would be, yet kept praying for some miracle. When the ascites started I knew the sad ending would be coming, yet was elated to read the dr had given him6 months to a year once the chemo stopped. I hoped he'd have at least 6 months of time left with his family and friends. I have been checking since his last post and only this morning decided to read the comments. I am so sorry to see of Jerry's passing away. You family is in my thoughts and prayers. His words have been so inspiring. I would love to share this blog with my friends husband, because he is not handling it well (mentally and emotionally), but I'm afraid all he would see is the passing not the living in your Jerry's fight. God Bless you Jerry, thank you for letting us share your journey. God Bless Terry and your family during this time.

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