I'm A Reject

I was rejected for chemo treatment yesterday because despite three days of self injection with neupogen, my white blood count was too low. In fact it doesn’t get lower. It was zero. That makes me very susceptible to infection so please, not matter where you are, don’t sneeze or cough if you are facing New Jersey.

I’m disappointed because I really tried to get myself to the point where I could get normal treatment. But Dr. George explained that the cumulative effect of more than two years of chemo has compromised the ability of my bone marrow to produce the white cells. She was also hinting that I should be talking “things” over with Terry and think about taking a nice trip or otherwise enjoying life. It’s not a good sign when the Chemo Kaiser is leaning towards no more chemo.

My plan now is to inject myself over five days with neupogen and try again next week. I want to see if this chemo cocktail gets any good response. I also believe that God has guided me throughout this and the setback may just be His way of saying that less intensive treatment is the way to go now.

Carry On.

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